What I Have Lived For

By Moiz, Sep 8, 2016

I have not lived for nothing as of yet I believe. At the age of ninety-five, I do not anticipate having too many more years to look forward to, but still at this point in time I believe I cannot answer the question as to what I have lived for as I am still living. Because if there is anything that I have learned it’s that I cannot see what is further ahead of me than the span of my arms. As a rider is to be approaching a cave, from a distance he may be deceived — especially in the night — and it may be the case that the cave is truly a rounded bridge of sorts. I do not pretend to know what is to come next so rather than explaining what I have lived for, I would much rather give you the words that would explain why I am still among the living.

I am still among the living for precisely this purpose: the joy it gives me to write — to explicate the answers to the questions of my heart — is greater than any worldly pleasure I have ever known of. The truth remains that I would like to have written more in the years that I have lived, but I am keen to continue as the tide never stops its charge despite how often it breaks at the shore.

Truthfully, I am alive for the people that this world has housed as their temporary abode. The men, the women, but most of all the children that I have had the truest honor of coming to understand as my companions — as friends — with whom I have created many meaningful memories and a body of magnificent works are my most profound reason for existence. The loving people I have encountered are to know that I am still alive for them; if it’s something that they forget in the course of our frightened retreats in our fleeting livelihoods then I pray that I remind them of this fact every day that I am blessed with living.

Finally, I live to meditate on the ecstasies of the universe — both of nothing and of everything. Neither is greater than the other, but as I have learned in my time here, they are nearly one and the same. The truth of the essence within me is the only part of me that I don’t regret keeping. Even at this age I have yet to let go to the extent that I know I must. Maybe it isn’t too long that I drift into oblivion.

But if that’s what must happen then I am glad to have been able to share these thoughts with you.

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